|Title: I realised it was now time to make a stand|
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Date Posted：23/09/2009 12:27 PMCopy HTML
Well where to begin.....the only reason i stumbled across this site was after i got home Saturday, i decided to google noel hollins, sure enough there was quite a bit of info on him and his wicked ways. I cant believe how many people take a peek at this site, very re assuring tho that there is support for ppl from the GRC here. Being back at the hall brought back all kinds of emotions, especially when they started singing a hymn. I burst into tears just knowing what they where singing was a just a lie, It was the one with the chorus ' he's a friend of mine ', nice song but just couldn't hold it together. I found it also weird that is is exactly the same as 9 years ago when i was last there. I just hope my family do see the truth one day because atm they are very much under Noels jurisdiction.
I knew of God at an early age, i was 11 when i recieved and got baptised, by NOEL at OG camp one sunday arvo. I remember only ryan carey and myself had only recieved in our age group, then after a few years everyone seemed to do it. My first knowledge that this org was dodgy was when the Walker's,(max and carol) got giving there marching orders when told not to visit theyre backsliden parents. I was good mates with barry whom i spent my high schools years with. Even at such an early age something was amiss.
All through my teenage years it was hard when doing certain things , how to act normal and such like things when it came to social occasions, so yeah i just went through the motions of going to youngies and twice on sundays and tho in a wed night and a monthly fast there was hardly time for yourself anyway.
I wanted out from when i was 16 i reakon, so i patiently waited for the right time and left. Left family home, left life as i knew it. I remember the day i left like yesterday...
funnily enough it was a fast day and mum told me to get ready. As i was in shower contemplating my fate i realised it was now time to make a stand. When i got out i told my parents i wasn't going to that church anymore, i was told to consequences of my actions and proceeded to pack up my belongings and move out. I said to them are you goin to kick me out of home coz i dont want to attend meetings anymore? They said that was my way of looking at it. I didn't talk to mum for 4 months after that day, let alone my dad and 2 brothers. Things became ok between us and i even started goin back for a weekly dinner. I was going and doing some wild things when i first left GRC, and was quite the drug addict. After years of abuse towards myself i was summoned to Dax house for a few weeks. Not my favorite experience by far. Not long after i was in re hab, life seemed very full of questions that no body could answer me, so silly me i went back to the ministry, bad move.
I only lasted 6 months, i just left because of the same thoughts and feelings i had last time i was there. I did the Sunday comm for a few weeks then i was allowed to come sun night and wed night. I was supposed to ring Noel up and came back to youngies but just kept putting it off and one day just packed all my things and left again.
I tried calling mum and dad a few times after i left again but they sed i couldn't even call or come over any more. i didn't hear anything for at least 4 years when i thought i better contact mum. My druggy ways were a thing of the past and was living a good life. Mum only would ever talk on the phone never meet up. it was only because my partner and i had our first child that mum and dad broke down the barriers to even see us wen jillian was in hospital. i now see mum and dad on a regular basis and they don't even mention the ministry.
I just wanted to vent a bit of my story as being back at that awful place brought back a lot of memories, good and bad. Can any one tell me how long this site has been running for? It would have been great back in day everyone would've been on here after a wed night combo, hehehehehe.
I have heaps more to tell but i will leave it there for now, take care and rejoice.
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Re：I realised it was now time to make a stand
Date Posted：23/09/2009 1:21 PMCopy HTML
Well where to begin.....the only reason i stumbled across this site was after i got home Saturday, i decided to goggle noel hollins, sure enough there was quite a bit of info on him and his wicked ways. I cant believe how many people take a peek at this site, very re assuring tho that there is support for ppl from the GRC here. Being back at the hall brought back all kinds of emotions, especially when they started singing a hymn. I burst in2 tears just knowing wot they where singing was a just a lie, It was the one with the corus ' he's a friend of mine ', nice song but just couldnt hold it together. I found it also weird that is is exactely the same as 9 years ago when i was last there. I just hope my family do see the truth one day because atm they are very much under Noels juristiction.
Well that experience just sucked. How brave of you to even consider going back there. Yes, nothing changes there, nothing grows. Its sad.
Big hugs to you.
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Re：I realised it was now time to make a stand
Date Posted：13/10/2009 12:39 PMCopy HTML
Hi Backslider and welcome to the forum. I dont frequent here all that often these days. Been out for over a year now, so slowing moving on.