Hello,
Just a few things I am struggling with lately, and my reasoning behind them.
For the last ten years or so I have been really struggling with the fact that my life seems like a Mc Donalds existance.
You grow older, you get a mortgage, you get a reasonable career at a large corporation, you drive to work, you do your shift, you go home, eat, do housework, may spend 15 minutes thinking about God, the world or anything else, you watch TV and then go to bed and wake up the next day and do it all over again.
Then on sundays, you go to church.
My life seems like it is completely futile, except when I go to church or get involved with the Alternative Technology Association ( been a menber for 10 years) or dream of an alternative lifestyle.
My problem is is that I just cannot go on much longer the way it is.
I know that I am bound to provide for my family ( in my case my beautiful daughter) and as a single parent I think I am doing ok there, but I need more.
So i have decided to sell the house ( really bad timing presentltly ) and then I can pay the mortgage off, and free myself up.
My plan is to try and work part time and then use the time left to give myself to study and service to others in a Christ like way - eg: volunteer for involvement in needs ministry or something.
My Anglican clergy are advising that it is a good thing.
Have you ever thought of this, or have done this? I am just needing some re-assurance or warning or something that I can use to see what others are thinking in regard to this, so i can guage if I am just on a pipe dream or if it is a reallity worth pursuing..
Your feedback or questions would be appreciated..
Mr K